Dear 2015


Dear 2015…

You were quite a year. I had no idea all the changes you held. God provided many opportunities for me to use the word I chose for the year, courage. 2015 taught me comfort zones are overrated. I was pushed out of mine several times, and still survived. I found the first step of courage is the hardest. But realizing God is right there in the journey has given me boldness to continue stepping out in faith. Sometime during the last year it clicked that I don’t have to worry about failing if what I’m doing is for God. If I am obeying Him and going where He is leading then all I have to do is follow. He will take care of the rest. I also learned there is life beyond KC, although it took me quite a while to believe it. I saw the beauty of what happens when we release our plans and expectations and turn them over to God. He has provided more than we need, placed us in an area better than we hoped for, and put people in my life who have come along side me when I needed it most.

In the midst of changes and learning to be courageous, I had times where I struggled. I spent many days where it seemed I was just trying to survive. There were days of self-pity and days of sadness seeing all the awful things happening in our world. It was easy for me to fall into fear and despair. But anytime I start to feel fearful, I remember 2 Timothy 1:7, “For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” God is in control and that gives us hope. We wait expectantly and believe He will make everything right when he comes again. I know there are seasons when just making it through is enough. But I am tried of just surviving. While we continue to wait for His return, I want to thrive.

As I look to 2016, I’m filled with hope. I am not the same person I was when I started last year and I want my character to continue to grow this next year. I want to live more recklessly for God. It is exciting to watch Him work and use us if we simply say yes. I want to live this life fully for God and have no regrets. I don’t want fear to cause me to say no when God asks me to obey. It takes courage to wait with hope. We do, however, have His word filled with promises for us. In Rev 7:17 is says, “For the Lamb in the midst of the throne will be their shepherd. And he will guide them to springs of living water. And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes.” So we do not wait in vain. Nor do we stick our heads in the sand and ignore the chaos around us. We continue to show God’s love to others. We have courage to live boldly in the face of fear because we know the One who has overcome the world. We point our arrows out and make a difference where we can. And we thrive.IMG_4079