“Be still, and know that I am God” Psalm 46:10
I dropped both kids off at school and hopped into my car. I knew exactly what I wanted to do with the 4 glorious hours I had to myself – go to the beach. In the time we have been living here in California, the beach has become my happy place. And I had yet to go by myself. I was giddy! I tried to appear like I had it all together as I walked from Starbucks to the sand, even though burning coffee was running down my arm. (I guess I can’t blame the kids for all my messes.) I finally found a spot to sit, as close to the water as I could be without my chair getting wet. I just sat and listened.
I was reminded this week to Be Still, which I heard actually means to be calm. So I calmed myself and I took time to reflect. And I realized how my life had gotten out of rhythm. As I listened to the waves crash, I observed how the ocean has perfect rhythm. It is never rushed yet always constant. It doesn’t matter what else is going on, the waves always come in and break in their perfect timing. I thought about the last time I had been still, really still, and I couldn’t remember. I had been running on empty for a while and the sound of my complaining was drowning out God’s voice. Even when it was quiet around me, I was too loud. So I sat and just listened. And when I quieted my pity party, I could hear His truth. I could hear the truth that parenting is worth it, even when it is really hard. I could hear the truth that raising godly kids is my greatest mission right now, even when it doesn’t feel like it. I could hear the truth that God had placed exactly the right people around me, to come along side me and encourage me during this season.
And as I sat and listened to each wave come in, I could feel God’s truth wash over me, bringing healing. Because sometimes we get so wrapped up with our own issues it causes the truth to become clouded and distant. But it is still there. Always there. We just have to be purposeful in finding a healthy rhythm in our lives, one that allows us time to listen to God. We just have to Be Still.