A new year provides a perfect opportunity to reflect over the past 12 months. In 2016, I spent a good amount of time in self-discovery mode. I learned it’s okay to be choosy with who has access to your time. I learned I may or may not ( definitely do) have boundary issues- trouble saying no, trouble accepting help from others, unrealistic expectations. I learned I have grown cynical of prayer. And I learned I am not good at setting goals for my life. (Just writing all these issues is evident I should probably seek professional help.) But the most important thing I learned is I can work to change these issues. I’m not stuck living this way. With God’s help, I can become a better version of myself.
My word for this year is confidence. Confidence fully represents the changes I want to make and the direction I want to head. First and foremost, I want to be confident in Christ, confident to be who God made me to be, not changing for anyone for Him.
“But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in Him” Jeremiah 17:7. If I get that right, I won’t be concerned with what others think or worried about what others say. I will have the courage to live my life for Him alone.
I also want to pray bold prayers and believe He will answer them. I have never doubted that God could answer our prayers, but I have grown to question if He will. I believe our Father wants us to pray giant prayers and expect giant answers. That requires confidence.
Lastly, I am learning how important it is to have big dreams for your life. In general, I’m not a dreamer. If it sounds too crazy to happen, count me out. However, just like bold prayers, big dreams require me to give God control to come through and show up big for His glory. So I’m working on thinking outside of my safe, very grounded box. I’m tired of letting fear make me miss out on opportunities God has for me. In 2 Corinthians 3:5 it says, “It is not that we think we are qualified to do anything on our own. Our qualification comes from God.” That gives me the confidence to know if God calls me to do something, He will give me the skills to accomplish it.
I’m ready and willing this new year to see what God has in store and how He gives me the strength and confidence to carry out what He asks of me.